Life and death.

Just as you think life is so long and dreadful, you can be wrong.
Just as you think life seemed to pass so quickly, you can be wrong.
A bit of equality should be there in my opinion – not too fast, not too slow; perfect the way it is.

It makes me wonder how it feels like the day I entered the world. If I can choose to remember those memories, I would choose to keep it. I want to know if the whole story behind about how babies cry because they know that they are entering a horrifying world. Some part of me believes it’s true because I really do think that babies are an innocent soul. However, another part of me differs.
So when you are living the life of a human breathing the air, does it ever occur to you why you are in this world? Are you here to make a change?
This leads me to death.

Do you really believe that there’s life after death? I do like to think so because I admit; I do not like the idea of death thinking that it is the end of the chapter for humans. I guess it is a way to convince myself that there is more meaning to life than just an end. Hence it made me wonder if they meant life after death in the sense that if you were someone famous in the living world; you are remembered for the things you did while you’re alive – does that considered as “life” or that there is literally more life than just memories?

I was never really close to my gran until she left the world – I didn’t want to. It was during the funeral that I realised how much of a woman she is; no, not any other ordinary woman. She survived the World War I and how she volunteered for so many organizations throughout her lifetime; how she goes to the church and tells stories to them little ones where curiosity plays a major part of life. Indirectly, I am very much like her compared to all her grandchild seeing that I have always enjoyed volunteering and helping others….

As much as I do not like the idea of believing in spirits and what not – sometimes, it’s best to have a little bit of faith in those things rather than not having any beliefs until it occurs to you. Conversely, it’s never too late to believe in something.

Anyhow, listen to this song.

Intensity.

Been thinking non stop the past 40 hours that it haunts me in my sleep. Creep.
That probably explains the excessive headache I've been having all day.
It's amazing, isn't it? How one confession left you thinking about so many fucking things.
Could have punched you in the stomach or smack that head of yours to ask you to wake up and not judge - but that's not who I am, never.

Finally met Andy again after so long. So good to see him, you have no idea. Boy, he definitely did put on some weight so I told him that he gained weight and he got all sad cos he reckons that I think he's fat. No sir. Weight - in general.
It was a good night out for us though. A little bit of drama when the bouncer was being an ass to us.
Come to think about it; do I look like I have "drama" printed on my forehead?

I can't wait for my getaway. I need some time off to think.
And I found a new love. Soon.. in probably a week time; I'd get hold of it.

Atrhur's 20th.

Fat ass. Getting old you old fart.
Stop speaking so loudly as we're not 3038237 miles away from you.
And stop repeating our full names. You're embarrassing us; or at least me.
I am going to smack you in the head, you drunkard.
Anyhow, happy 20th birthday. You're officially not a teen anymore.
But more reasons for you to be a little retarded in the head trying to act young and coming up with sly jokes.
Ps. I am still a teen. Jealous?

I don't know what I should do or say when you put me in this position.
I was left speechless. Tried so hard to be logical.
Tears wouldn't stop steaming down my face.
When friendship goes wrong...
There goes a friendship...

Being the nice girl does not mean you wouldn't get hurt.
When they like you for your personality... well, bonus if you have the looks.
Maybe I should start being the next big bitch.
I can try but I am very likely to fail.
Someone should just slap me out of this.
Anyone.

New.

A tad bit random but...
Sup world?